Lately there have been allot of things going though my mind, yesterday I was hopeful for a good day at O-Conn, and it was, but there where some issues from last week that kept me from having a good time. Not only that, sales of the show have been so low I actually don’t know what’s going on. I think some of it has to do with the City, only airing the same episode all month is not quite I was expecting.

However last night, I had one of the most devastating nightmares in a long time, enough to wake up crying. While I do get nightmares from time to time, this one particular dream impacted me with such a deep sadness and depression I still feel now, and its already night-time; what am I talking about? I had a dream, that some one I know, and care about for years, she is someone who I’ve talked to when I first got into tSf chat room, she’s made me happy, sad, and even angry to a point where I yelled at her. However thought all that... My feelings for her remain the same, while I do not know if the feelings are mutual, this is where my heart fails. Last night, I dreamt that, out of the blue, she announced she was getting engaged, my heat sank so fast, I couldn't contain myself, in my dream I cried, and morned so badly, I woke up, crying. I have always prayed, told myself I wanted to visit and support her; but in the dream I had Failed, I Failed my self, and I had Failed my heart...

To this point, she has secluded herself from everyone, or at least from what she has said. I honestly don’t know how her life is at this point, I guess thats what prompted this dream. While I’ve had other bad dreams about her, like getting in trouble, or hurt, I was there to help if could’ve; but this dream hit me like a ton of bricks because it hit where it would do most damage, and thats my heart of love for her...

I just pray tonight’s dream wont be a repeat, or a sequel of this nightmare...

UPDATE:
Ya know, Now I'm begging to think I'm cursed, My Hard Drive just crapped out.... with the original 2008 Vixxy PSD file..... WONDERFUL!! >.< Damn it all to hell... Western Digital drives...